I've been so busy the last week that I haven't even had time to write anything down. I had orientation for my new job. I was afraid I wouldn't know anybody in orientation but my best friend and also my cousin was in there, so it wasn't bad. We all had to suffer through it together.

It's funny, the week before I see Sean, I'm desperately wanting him. Well this time, he's on vacation and won't be back until the end of the month. So, here I am keeping myself company. Isn't that horrible? I guess Sean will just have to make it all up when I see him next.

Yesterday I had to work but I caught the last innings of the Sox and Cards game. I would love to have been there. My heart goes to the Sox, but the Cards just play good baseball as we could have clearly seen yesterday. The poor Sox lost. I think this is their second time to lose a series at home. Maybe today they can turn that around and win.

FYI

I'm sitting here right out of the shower. Still in my robe. I bet you wish you were here. Don't ya?

Absence

My random and few readers have probably been wondering where that girl that knows her baseball and barely her fantasy's are. I've been just so busy on my mini-vacation. Thursday my mom and I took a day trip on the train.

The only exciting news in my love life department(or lack thereof) is that last Tuesday I got to see Sean! Yes, the one and only who rocks my world. The funniest thing, we were supposed to meet at 3:00, but he was already there when I got there and that was about 20 'til. We were both ready to see each other. It seemed forever that we hadn't saw each other, it was about 4 or 5 weeks, which is way too long.

We did the usual, kissing and our hands roaming all over each others bodies. It's always one of those things were you don't know exactly when your clothes came off. I already had my shirt and bra off, and I went over to him. He was undoing his jeans. I went over and kissed him and grab a hold of his cock. He unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans and jammed his finger inside me. I love when he does that. I continued to stroke him. He also sucked and bit on my nipples, which feels wonderful.

The next thing he did was lay me on the bed. He continued to finger and kiss me. He kept asking about the times I had gotten off while thinking about him. He asked if I squirted when I did and I told him no. He thinks I do, but I never have when I've gotten myself off. He continued to occasionally bite my nipples

He told me that it was time to fuck me. I love it when he says that. We were doing it missionary and very fast and hard. I don't know why, but it was too hard, so I had him slow down and then when it was right, I told him harder. He asked me if I wanted it in my ass and I told him no, I said no, I want it in my pussy. Usually, I have no choice in where his cock will be. Maybe he knew that I've missed him so much, that this time he gave me a choice. He came and stayed in me while we talked about what I had been up to for the month. He's been going through a hard time, so I didn't want to mention any of those things. You know, it's awkward sometimes to do that. He mentioned the next time we'll meet. This probably wasn't the best that we've had, but you know, everything can't be great all the time. He's going on vacation, so I'll sadly see him either at the end of the month or probably at the first of the month. He knows that I'll keep myself occupied by thinking of him while I get off.

Simple Pleasures

Last night I was talking to a friend saying that I would simply love to makeout with someone. It seems like it has been forever since I kissed someone. I miss that. Hopefully someday soon I'll kiss the best kisser since umm...I ain't saying. ;-)

Of All Days

I haven't really talked to my personal life and I don't want to, that's what the vanilla blog is all about. Tomorrow is my last day of work here and I'm moving back home. Yes, that will be tough on my non-existent love life there.

It's kind of bittersweet. I'll miss the independence and the almost availability of men but I missed my family. Does that make sense?

So I've been tying up loose ends and sending out emails saying where I'm going. I just hate not telling people that and then later they'll think I'm still here.

One of those people was Sean. I emailed him and told him for the second time where I was working. I think he's had a rough couple past weeks. So hopefully one day next week I can come up here and see him. I told him that I would email him on Sunday and let him know what my plans are. Sean said that he couldn't wait to be inside me again. Like I said before, he's one amazing man.

Embarassments

Ok, you all know that I'm a shy and quiet girl. Now of all times, I'm embarassed. I was looking at someones blog who had a link to youporn. I clicked on that, then I couldn't hear anything, so I turned up the volume more, then all the sudden the sound got louder and I couldn't turn the volume down. I was literally running around my room trying to get the volume down. Finally did and by that time I was shaking from nervousness. Hopefully the a/c and tv drowned out the sound. I know people watch it but I don't want it widely known that I happened to do it, especially after we told this girl that was looking at my soon-to-be-vacant-room about my roommates porn viewing. Gosh, I'm just embarassed. I think we've all been in this situation. A friend told me not to think about it, but I can't help but to think about it. Since I'm hoping that all kinds of other sounds drownded out the p0rn sounds, I went to get some water to take some medicine and I heard one of my roommates up. Hopefully she's not on the phone to her boyfriend explaining what she heard.

Anyway, if she does mention it, she doesn't really have any room to talk because I heard her once (winces) with her latest ex boyfriend.

Wish me luck as I hide under this rock.