Decisions

Ever felt like you're never going to get laid? That's the way I'm feeling. I just have it and I don't know what to do with it. I'm on aff, but I don't have any interest in those guys, they all seem the same. I think part of feeling this way is that I don't have Sean to rely on any more even though it was sporadic. After being with him for pretty much a year, it's hard to say what you really want.

I was thinking about heading to DC Presidents Day weekend, but that weekend snuck up on me and I didn't quite have the funds to make the trip. I feel better about not going because I don't really have great luck catching up with my friend Chuck. Maybe the 3rd time would be the charm? I just didn't want to take the chance of not seeing him. Yes, I know there's other guys in that city, but I'd just want him plus I'll probably be on my period then so things will be icky.

These guys on aff crack me up, of course I live in the middle of nowhere and they mostly live near the largest city in my state. I'll get emails asking if we can get together tonight when they live about 2 hours away at the most. Don't they know on my profile, it shows the distance between them and me?

Today I talked to Jack. I don't really remembered what the subject was yesterday but some how we started talking about how I'd wake him up in the middle of the night. That's one of the first things we talked about when we started talking the second time. I told him that I would wake him up by grabbing his cock really hard. Supposedly, he likes to be played with rough, I guess we'll have to see about that. Then he asked what if he didn't wake up and I said that I would start nibbling on his neck and he really liked that. The next thing I would do would be to get on top of him and ride him. He would then grab me and then roll me over so that he would be on top. Him, being a tease would go very slow and not hard at all. I asked why he was going so slow and he told me to shut up. I grabbed his ass and that made him go faster. Jack knew that I liked this and kept going faster. He knew how much getting cum on me turned me on as much as it did him, so he pulled out and straddled between my hips and stomach. He took his cock in his hands and began stroking. Jack grabbed my hair and lifted my head so I could watch him. He told me that he was close and to expect what I wanted from him. It didn't take that much after he said that when he started to cum. He got it on my face and ran down my neck and then there was some on my tits.

In real life, he did cum and left me there in my office wanting him even more. Distance can be a great thing but then again, it can be horrible.