Life

I'm just fresh out of the shower and feel better than ever. It's amazing what the effects of a very hot shower can do, it can either wake you up or make you sleepier than ever. Sounds like an orgasm doesn't it? Nope, my life hasn't drifted to having a great shower rather than the orgasm. I'm not going to let it get that way.

So the dominant guy that I met a few weeks ago went awol. Maybe he was just using me on the side, as a friend suggested? I have no clue really. This will sound crazy, but if he told me that in the first place then it would be alright with me. It's his loss really.

After I had broke it off with Sean, I missed him. I didn't think I would but I did, but at the same time I felt relieved that I didn't have to go up there and see him. Routine for me, gets old.

By the way, pitchers and catchers reported! In a few months, I'll be busy with this baseball business. :)

Decisions

Ever felt like you're never going to get laid? That's the way I'm feeling. I just have it and I don't know what to do with it. I'm on aff, but I don't have any interest in those guys, they all seem the same. I think part of feeling this way is that I don't have Sean to rely on any more even though it was sporadic. After being with him for pretty much a year, it's hard to say what you really want.

I was thinking about heading to DC Presidents Day weekend, but that weekend snuck up on me and I didn't quite have the funds to make the trip. I feel better about not going because I don't really have great luck catching up with my friend Chuck. Maybe the 3rd time would be the charm? I just didn't want to take the chance of not seeing him. Yes, I know there's other guys in that city, but I'd just want him plus I'll probably be on my period then so things will be icky.

These guys on aff crack me up, of course I live in the middle of nowhere and they mostly live near the largest city in my state. I'll get emails asking if we can get together tonight when they live about 2 hours away at the most. Don't they know on my profile, it shows the distance between them and me?

Today I talked to Jack. I don't really remembered what the subject was yesterday but some how we started talking about how I'd wake him up in the middle of the night. That's one of the first things we talked about when we started talking the second time. I told him that I would wake him up by grabbing his cock really hard. Supposedly, he likes to be played with rough, I guess we'll have to see about that. Then he asked what if he didn't wake up and I said that I would start nibbling on his neck and he really liked that. The next thing I would do would be to get on top of him and ride him. He would then grab me and then roll me over so that he would be on top. Him, being a tease would go very slow and not hard at all. I asked why he was going so slow and he told me to shut up. I grabbed his ass and that made him go faster. Jack knew that I liked this and kept going faster. He knew how much getting cum on me turned me on as much as it did him, so he pulled out and straddled between my hips and stomach. He took his cock in his hands and began stroking. Jack grabbed my hair and lifted my head so I could watch him. He told me that he was close and to expect what I wanted from him. It didn't take that much after he said that when he started to cum. He got it on my face and ran down my neck and then there was some on my tits.

In real life, he did cum and left me there in my office wanting him even more. Distance can be a great thing but then again, it can be horrible.

Thinking

Last weekends plans were dashed. Seriously! I haven't mentioned this weekend to him either. I don't like plans, that's why.

I posted two pics of the ol' school girl uniform on aff and I've gotten a lot of attention. Mind you, the pics are from my iphone, but they're garnering the attention! I'm surprised. I've talked to a couple of guys, nothing really promising as of yet.

Trying

I'm going to see R. on Sunday! He's not letting me get off until I see him. It's agonizing!!! Last week I was on my period, so I haven't been able to play in about a week and a half. He knows it and I bet he enjoys the thought that I'm about to go crazy!

He wants me to dress up for him. I've never dressed up for a guy. He suggested a school girl uniform. So, I found the skirt, shirt, socks and shoes! I'm pretty proud of myself. He likes cleavage, so I bought a push up bra even if I have to adjust my tits to make them even have any cleavage. I guess guys think all women have cleavage. I put on the outfit and sent him some pics last night. Man, I got hot last night! It was so hard going to sleep without rubbing my clit. But, I was a good girl and didn't play.

I'll have to let you all know how Sunday goes. :)

Here's a preview.

Thoughts

It's so cold outside and I'm just chilling here on the couch.

This weekend didn't turn out for me and the new guy, so that's why I'm here staying warm at home.

Since I'm horny as heck, I'm thinking about what turns me on. I think confidence is sexy. It shows that a guy knows what he's doing (hopefully). Height, I'm tall, so he must be. You may say it's just physical appearance, but I don't want to be leaning down to kiss someone. A great kisser, that shows you have other abilities. A country boy with city boy smarts - yes, it can happen. I'm not saying that country boys aren't smart, it's just that sometimes they don't know the real world that is 5 miles out of their range. A guy who drives a truck, especially a dually! Just something about that kind of truck. Hopefully the truck doesn't compensate for...

That's just a few things that turn me on. I'd love to hear what turns you onl

You, not him

For the past few days I've been talking to several of my guy friends who live so far away that it's terrible. What I was telling them that I'm kind of getting bored with Sean. It's not that he's lousy, but it's the same old thing every time. I want a change, maybe for him to do something different such as being more aggressive or doing something that he wanted. I'm not saying that I want this 100% of the time, I just don't want the same thing.

So yesterday I looked on CL. Yes, I wound up doing that. I've found several guys and slowly culling them out. It's kind of neat to find someone that you're looking for. I'm just hoping that one of these guys turn out!

A Stranger?

Yes, I'm finally here. I've been just plain busy. Can you believe that? My internet has been so slow for the past few weeks and I haven't made it to the library for their super wifi.

While everything was actually busy, I was thinking of things to write about. I'm not this expert sex blogger, nor do I really try to. Some people really try to or title themselves as one but I think I have more on my blog then they do. (sorry for the vent)

One of the few things that I wanted to write about was that I don't understand the hype of sex toys. Before Ryan had got me one, I had always wanted one. Now, I'm not saying that he shouldn't have gotten me one. It's just that I think they're overrated. Maybe it's because I'm actually seeing a human being on a regular basis and these people who keep talking about them probably aren't?

So my fingers are still my favorite toy. Who knows, maybe it's just that particular toy itself? Like I said, I can't really complain because it was given to me.

Another thing is that I wish that I knew of a guy that was local. Knowing someone an hour away is sadly getting tiresome. I like the guy (well, not like as in like) but I just wish I knew someone like him that lived closer (my life story).