Ever had one of those days, weeks or months where you feel like you're never going to be with anyone? That's exactly how I feel. You make plans and then they fall apart. It's probably all with the wrong person after all. It can be frustrating at times. I guess it's life though, everything can't be great all of the time.

It probably does sound like I'm down. Today I found out that one of my friends and her husband is getting a divorce. It's shocking, really, something you'd never expect. I guess it's better for them this way, even though they didn't even try to get back together.

Even though I didn't get to see Sean again today, I don't feel bad about it. Maybe it's just that we lead two different lives, him living in the city and me, the country mouse. He's just not that readily available as he should be. Some guys are, but he sure isn't.

Maybe (my word of the day) the rest of the week will be much better then today. The flowers and trees are all blooming, the sun just needs to be out.

Plans

I always have a feeling that all my titles sound the same way.

This weekend was great considering that weekends are usually very boring to me. I was hoping to meet someone and I did! This girl got her some cock!! Yes, I'm excited but sort of bummed at the same time. I gave a few of my very awesome blow jobs and was expecting some pussy, but didn't get that. Maybe next time if there is one?

Any way, this guy was hott (yes, with two t's!). After being with this guy, I think every guy should tan and don't tell me that's not your style. He was a little rough around the edges but a very sweet guy. Don't you just love those kind of guys?

On my way to meet him, he had texted me and told me that he liked to get spanked and I said that I did too. Once I had given the first bj(which I had given special attention and lick and sucked on his smooth balls and taint), he got on his stomach where he was laying at the foot of the bed and I was sitting at the head of the bed. I started rubbing his ass and he told me to spank him and I did. I eventually started kissing and licking his ass while he was moaning. I also rimmed his ass and fucked him with my tongue. Ok, this was my first time doing this and it was very hot!! I started fingering his ass and got behind him where I started stroking his cock. He turned over and I gave him another blow job and he started fingering me, rubbing my clit and grabbing my nipple. He was very rough, which I loved! I came from him rubbing my clit and he finished on my face.

Later on that night we were laying in bed and he started rubbing his ass on me, so I took that as a hint to start playing with his ass. I started fingering him and then got my dildo out and put some lube on it. He loved it when I fucked his ass with my toy.

After we had finished that, I had asked him if he had ever been fucked with a strapon and he said yes, bigger the better. He asked me if I had a problem with that and I said definitely not. I'm not a nosey person, but I knew that I had to ask this since he loved getting his ass fucked so much.

Sometimes, I think I need to name this blog, Confessions of the Naive.

We were watching tv and something was on that talked about the Louvre. I told him that I had been there and he asked about the Mona Lisa. It's funny, sometimes people I think take me as this hick that's never been beyond a few states. Guess I can always prove them wrong. ;-)

Infamous

I was recently selected on both Fleshbot's Sex Blog Roundup and Best Sex Bloggers The Week in Kink! It's unbelievable! I can't believe that I actually have readers. As you may know, I just use the vanilla blog for ranting or personal business that isn't so sex worthy, but readers here really means a lot for me. This just flatters me!

As for other recent news, my (lack-thereof) sex life is at a standstill. Yep, it's true. If anyone knows anyone, let me know! AFF and other sites aren't helping either. Maybe it's just this time of year?

This is also coming up on the best time of the year, baseball season! I can't wait. I haven't kept up much with spring training, that's one thing that I will definitely have to do. :)

This time change sure does have me messed up, it's a good thing that I have tomorrow off work. :)

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Twitter Killed the (Sex) Blog

Everybody quickly caught onto the twittering phenomenon. It's a very fast form of saying what you want in 140 quick characters. Some use it as advertising, which I don't think is necessary because whoever winds up on your twitter page will see your link to your blog. For me, it's a way of saying what's on your mind at that said moment. It's sort of like a custom away messenger on yahoo but you can some how get followers by doing this. I may do this but I try not to, but some bloggers tend to ramble. Rambling is good but sometimes it's bad. You might get an idea about something out of one of those random tweets but sometime no information is given.

When I first started reading blogs, I would pick someones blogroll and read what they read themselves. With twitter, you read whatever tweets that the twitterer is following or who is following them. Sometimes the twitterers are spam, like you will find all over the internet thinking that people will be gullible.

I wonder how we can all get back to blogging or was it just a fad started in '03-'04? Maybe blogging about this particular subject is bland because every one knows each other instead of being all, wow, I wish I knew that person (like we were so long ago). Maybe we need to ask readers what they like or dislike or we could just use our own opinion since this about what we want to say ourselves.

Sometimes I want to tell a person about my blog but then I feel like I'll be giving a little too much information away although it doesn't have enough info as others may have. Do we keep this stuff quiet until the time is right or what?

I have no idea why I'm asking these questions, but if anyone does read this, please leave a comment. :)

Life

I'm just fresh out of the shower and feel better than ever. It's amazing what the effects of a very hot shower can do, it can either wake you up or make you sleepier than ever. Sounds like an orgasm doesn't it? Nope, my life hasn't drifted to having a great shower rather than the orgasm. I'm not going to let it get that way.

So the dominant guy that I met a few weeks ago went awol. Maybe he was just using me on the side, as a friend suggested? I have no clue really. This will sound crazy, but if he told me that in the first place then it would be alright with me. It's his loss really.

After I had broke it off with Sean, I missed him. I didn't think I would but I did, but at the same time I felt relieved that I didn't have to go up there and see him. Routine for me, gets old.

By the way, pitchers and catchers reported! In a few months, I'll be busy with this baseball business. :)

Decisions

Ever felt like you're never going to get laid? That's the way I'm feeling. I just have it and I don't know what to do with it. I'm on aff, but I don't have any interest in those guys, they all seem the same. I think part of feeling this way is that I don't have Sean to rely on any more even though it was sporadic. After being with him for pretty much a year, it's hard to say what you really want.

I was thinking about heading to DC Presidents Day weekend, but that weekend snuck up on me and I didn't quite have the funds to make the trip. I feel better about not going because I don't really have great luck catching up with my friend Chuck. Maybe the 3rd time would be the charm? I just didn't want to take the chance of not seeing him. Yes, I know there's other guys in that city, but I'd just want him plus I'll probably be on my period then so things will be icky.

These guys on aff crack me up, of course I live in the middle of nowhere and they mostly live near the largest city in my state. I'll get emails asking if we can get together tonight when they live about 2 hours away at the most. Don't they know on my profile, it shows the distance between them and me?

Today I talked to Jack. I don't really remembered what the subject was yesterday but some how we started talking about how I'd wake him up in the middle of the night. That's one of the first things we talked about when we started talking the second time. I told him that I would wake him up by grabbing his cock really hard. Supposedly, he likes to be played with rough, I guess we'll have to see about that. Then he asked what if he didn't wake up and I said that I would start nibbling on his neck and he really liked that. The next thing I would do would be to get on top of him and ride him. He would then grab me and then roll me over so that he would be on top. Him, being a tease would go very slow and not hard at all. I asked why he was going so slow and he told me to shut up. I grabbed his ass and that made him go faster. Jack knew that I liked this and kept going faster. He knew how much getting cum on me turned me on as much as it did him, so he pulled out and straddled between my hips and stomach. He took his cock in his hands and began stroking. Jack grabbed my hair and lifted my head so I could watch him. He told me that he was close and to expect what I wanted from him. It didn't take that much after he said that when he started to cum. He got it on my face and ran down my neck and then there was some on my tits.

In real life, he did cum and left me there in my office wanting him even more. Distance can be a great thing but then again, it can be horrible.

Thinking

Last weekends plans were dashed. Seriously! I haven't mentioned this weekend to him either. I don't like plans, that's why.

I posted two pics of the ol' school girl uniform on aff and I've gotten a lot of attention. Mind you, the pics are from my iphone, but they're garnering the attention! I'm surprised. I've talked to a couple of guys, nothing really promising as of yet.