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I'm one happy girl. :D

My friend Ryan came up here at the spur of the moment. Aren't those the best times? No time to really plan anything extravagent.

I was sitting in Starbucks when he said he had arrived at his hotel. He asked if there was a book store nearby and I told him that there was one in the shopping center that was across the street from him. I walked in after him and then I got his attention. He was looking for a better road map and we couldn't find one.

When we got to the room, we just laid there talking. I was tired from a long day in town and he from travelling. We had talked previously about toys and he brought some! For the past few year I have been toyless, if you can believe that.

At some point, we started kissing and I reach for his hardness that's underneath his shorts. He pulled off his shorts and I started sucking his cock. It was amazing to suck his cock. I can't explain it. He gets the dildo out. As I've never had one, I was really excited about it. He fucked me first and then turned the vibration onto my clit. This time was even better then the last time we were together. I know he agreed to that too.

He loved watching me do myself. There was a strategically placed mirror that he watched. No, it wasn't the mirror on the ceiling. Another funny thing, we aren't exhibitionist but he had turned on the ac when we first got there. We hadn't noticed until after the first time, that the air had blown the curtain open. I told him that I had saw one truck but didn't see the other truck before. Hopefully no one saw anything.

We decided to use the butt plug. I was a little nervous about it. Wouldn't you? I tried it first, but then I let him do the work. He also used the new toy in my pussy. Still, I can't explain the feeling of it. He did it for awhile and then I told him that I wanted him in my ass. I asked him if he had done anal before and he said only once before. He thought I had only done it in DC, but told him that I've done it several more times with Sean. His cock felt great. He knew how much I wanted him to cum on my tits. First we started off with a little bit of titty fucking. I loved feeling his cock on my tits. It's just hot. Then he started jerking off. I put the toy in my pussy and started to rub my clit. I thought I was never going to get off nor did he, but when I came, he also did. We were exhausted!

No Patience Whatsoever

I don't intend this blog to be a blog about romance. Well, I guess that could fall into the etc. part of this particular blog.

Those of you who know me that I have this friend who lives halfway across the country. We met in 2005 on craigslist when I was at this way boring internship in my hometown. We talked for a few months mainly through email and then we drifted apart. Then last October or the later part of September, he shows up on my instant messenger. We got to know each other again. He's a sweet guy with the greatest sense of humor.

It's just one of those things where you hope you'll get together but the chances of that happening aren't likely. That's what's driving me crazy. Yes, I know that patience makes the heart grow fonder. But, I just can't stand it. I have no patience.

Maybe this is what those teenagers go through. I for one never was boy crazy. As you know, boys aren't that special around here, so there weren't many to choose from. I just focused on other things like school. I'm not a nerd or anything although I did win top senior in the acedemic bowl. :-D

Remember When?

I'm pretty much a late bloomer although I don't typically state that when I'm talking to someone. I'm just not that way. Anyway, I miss those days of vanilla. I miss talking about what position was the best or what turned us on the most. I guess once you're past those questions, then you move onto more darker and kinkier things. But I'm wondering, can you ever come back? I'm not saying that I want vanilla all the time, but I definitely don't want the other stuff all the time either. Maybe it could be 50/50 and I'd be satisfied with that. As I've told others, I'm afraid I'll eventually marry someone who is 100% vanilla, that's my fear.

I also have a crazy vent/thought...can you disappoint someone that you haven't even met? As you know, this place where I live isn't swarming with men, so I talk to plenty online. I have the great ability of weeding out the losers from the non-losers.

All Smiles

I got to see him! I finally did. :-D He said that I disappeared, but I think we both did that.

I met him at the door for the longest kiss possible. His hands went all over my body as did mine on his. He moved my hand down to his cock and I felt his hardness under his jeans. He quickly unzipped my jeans and rubbed my clit and eventually fingered my pussy with his fingers.

We took off our clothes and then I got on my knees...something that I had been wanting to do for several weeks. He kept asking how much I loved his cock and how I hadn't had one to suck on for a long time. He reached down and pinched my nipples. That felt amazing!

He told me to get up and he was laying on the bed. I was on my knees sucking his cock very deep. This was the deepest that I've sucked his cock before. He reached down and was still playing with my nipples. That made me suck him harder and faster. I rose up and started kissing him, that's when he rolled me onto my back. He started to bite and pull on my nipples even harder than ever before. About that time he asked me how much I missed his cock and I replied to him, that's all I've thought about for the past couple of weeks. Before he entered me, he played with my clit and then stuck his fingers in my mouth. Once he was in me, it felt amazing. I know I use that word a lot, but it was fantastic! Words really can't describe it. You probably know what I mean. I could really tell how much we missed each other. As he says, we're getting better every time we're together.

Afterwards we visited, about the things we've done since we last saw each other. I think he's going to come over some weekend. I'm really excited about that.

Excitement or Lack Thereof

I've probably had that same title before, but I'll use it again. I got tired of leaving comments and having the same 2 week old post title, so I thought I needed something different.

It seems like all of the guys I've been running into online have been dominant and I haven't ran into one in real life. Well, let me put it this way, the ones in real life will say they are but when push comes to shove, they aren't. So, I'm wondering if any really exist in real life? You're probably reading this (if you are a guy) and saying, well, I'm that way and I'm real. Maybe I'm just doubting this because I'm not getting any period. ha ha

I'm also thinking about how it is to be submissive. Yes, it's a real turn on, but I've yet to really experience it. I'm just afraid (yes, I know I'm not supposed to be afraid), that I'll totally freak out. I know I need to get over that. I also know that the big thing is that I need to be with someone that I totally trust and don't want to be in that situation with anyone. Ya know?

Oh, another thing, I wish I could find someone local that wouldn't be so vanilla. Vanilla can be great, but I want someone totally different. You know how that is, well, I need to find that certain person. CL or AFF are totally out of the picture. If you only knew where I lived, then you would know what I mean. Plus, I'm from a very small town and if I told anyone about finding someone like this, I could basically pin a large 'A' on my shirt, literally or everybody in the town would know about me. You all think you have it bad in a big city, but just think about us where everybody knows out name?

I *think* I'm going to see S. tomorrow. Yes, I know I should be shouting it from the rooftops, but I still pessimistic about this whole situation. He's cancelled twice, which was week before last and the week before that. I know I shouldn't be that way, but when the other person's like that, you start getting that way. By the way, my whole world doesn't revolve around him, so it's not like I'm planning my non-existant plans around him. I just had to make that clear.

Dang, not getting any certainly helps you think about what you want, afraid of and need.

After thinking about this post, it probably came off as thinking that I'm whiny and can't make up my mind. I certainly can tell you that I'm not that way.

News

Today is a new day and it was much better than yesterday. I didn't think that I would hear from Jack but he did im me. He thought that I would be mad at him instead of the other way around. We just agreed that we would have to wait until the time is right to see each other even though we want each other right now. I'm really glad that we agree on that.

But besides that, this week seems like it will be the longest ever. The way my schedule is, I don't know when I'll see S. (that's an every day vent).

I need an amazing excuse to get away. Maybe to DC? Oh the fun I'd have there.

Endings

Nothing exciting has been occurring in the personal life of mine. I've been enjoying my days off and working on art projects. I think the main reason is that I told Jack that I just wanted to be platonic friends. You see, he's in this certain situation that's kind of Springer like. I doubt he'll want to talk to me for now. I put up with his situation for so long and had enough. Although, it may be my pms doing the talking.

I'm working on another blog too. It's a craft/gardening/baking/everything except sex blog. If you really want to know what it is, then email me and I'll give you the address.

I'm hoping (as always) to see S. next week! I haven't emailed him yet to see what his schedule looks like. It always seems that his and my schedules don't always go together. It's when I'm not busy, he's busy and vice versa. Oh the fun I'm going to have with him when I finally get to see him. The last email that he sent, he said that he definitely wanted us to get each other off. I hope he wants me as much as I want him.

This weekend I was talking to my friend Ryan. He thinks he might come up here for a long weekend. Before you start thinking, it sounds like she's getting it a lot, well you're wrong. I wish it was true, but it ain't. I'm crossing my fingers he'll get to come up here! I haven't saw him since last (07) March.

Changing the subject. This sounds corny but the bosox were in a no hitter last night and we were trying to break the no hitter that the chisox had. Someone had a rally cap on and that didn't work, so I went back into the living room and told my parents to do 'the wave' even though there were 3 of us. It actually worked! We broke the no hitter! The bosox wound up winning. :D

Who Wouldn't Want to Be Him?

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I saw this tshirt on CafePres.com. It's so funny. The reason I think it's funny is that I said when Lowrie came up to Boston, I bet he got the girls by saying, "I play for the Red Sox." You know the girls wouldn't always believe that from a guy like Lowrie. Lowrie isn't a showoff, he just does his job.

News to Me

Today I received some exciting news. S. didn't go on his trip! I sent him a very short email yesterday asking when he'd be back from his trip and he replied that he didn't go and he'll see me next week. I was a very happy girl.

As you know, last week, we weren't exactly able to meet and I was kind of bummed, but this news made it all better.